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Christ. Competence. Obedience.

First off I , I’ve been so completely humbled by the fact that we have a God who seeks so badly for us to hear his voice and to know his will.  He continually calls out to me, “Mica, Mica” just as he did to young Samuel in 1 Samuel chapter 3.  I’m learning how God continues to speak to us despite our immaturity and lack of experience. (Thank goodness!!) He desires for us to hear him so that we can respond to him in obedience. However sometimes I hear him but I don’t choose to follow in obedience.  This is where we have an issue.

Obedience. Man is that a hard thing for me.  I’m not the rebellious type. In fact, I’m quite the opposite. I find pleasure in following the rules.  Plus, I’m a pretty big people pleaser, so when someone asks me to do something, I tend to do it.  So why is obeying God so tough sometimes? I would say it’s because some of the things he calls us to do, makes us uncomfortable.  It calls us to be brave and to step out in faith. Sometimes what he calls us to do arouses a spirit of fear within us. Fear of others, fear of the unknown and fear of our own inadequacy.  Hmmm let’s see what the Lord has to say about inadequacy…

About a week ago I was meeting with my mentor, and we came across this verse in Exodus 4…

10 Moses said to the Lord, “Pardon your servant, Lord. I have never been eloquent, neither in the past nor since you have spoken to your servant. I am slow of speech and tongue.” 11 The Lord said to him, “Who gave human beings their mouths? Who makes them deaf or mute? Who gives them sight or makes them blind? Is it not I, the Lord? 12 Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say.” 13 But Moses said, “Pardon your servant, Lord. Please send someone else.”

Boy oh boy did this speak straight to me. I told my mentor that often times I feel like I AM MOSES. The Lord tells me I am capable because it’s not me doing the work, it’s Christ working through me. But somehow, sometimes I find myself saying the same thing Moses said, “Lord, send someone else.”  Sometimes I wish someone would shake me up and say “MICA… It’s NOT about you.  It’s about Christ simply using you to be a part of what he’s doing.” Why wouldn’t I (or WE because I now I’m not alone in this) want to play a part in that??

If the Lord himself tells me I am capable, qualified and competent why don’t I believe it?  Often times I think it’s because I’m missing the other side of the coin… 2 Corinthians 3:4-5 says this, Such confidence we have through Christ before God. Not that we are competent in ourselves to claim anything for ourselves, but our competence comes from God.

Ya see, we are qualified because of Christs spirit within us.  When we realize we are capable because of Christ, and that it has nothing to do with us, we can have full confidence within ourselves because our capabilities aren’t coming from us but from Him alone.  When the focus comes off me and on him, I am more than prepared, competent and capable. (Praise Jesus my capabilities don’t come from me!!! I would be worthless!! LOL!)

If the Lord calls us to do something, we are MORE than qualified, not by anything we’ve done or could ever do, but through Christ. I’m done letting fear have a place on His throne, He shouldn’t have to share His Glory.  And He won’t.  All the praise is His aloneHe is worthy.

 

With Love,

Mica

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New Year, Same God, Better Me!

As this new year rolls around, we often see people gain motivation, set goals and create resolutions. I am sure you have a few for yourself, which I think is amazing. I’ve always seemed to struggle with coming up with a lot of “New Year Resolutions.”  But this year I am trying to focus on a select few.

Kicking The Bucket List

I’ve decided I’m NOT going to live 2018 with the mentality that, I have to “go here,” “do that,” and “experience this.” Society likes to tell me, “have fun, experience the world.” However, I know that I don’t need anything that this world has to offer me.  As Pastor Levi Lusko puts it, “The LESS you need from this world, the MORE you can do for it, the MORE you can withstand pain from it, and the MORE you can actually enjoy it.” All too often I think going there, or experiencing that will make ME happy, but that’s where I’ve missed it.  It’s not about ME. If I was more focused on the next world (when Christ returns and His Kingdom comes) then I would need much less from this world.

So I’m kicking my bucket list and not letting experiences, circumstances and status hold power in my life.

Delighting in The Lord

I’ve also decided that I will seek to know and seek to enjoy the person of Christ more in 2018.  I will seek to delight in Him for He gets the glory when I am satisfied in Him.  As John Piper says, “Be supremely satisfied in what is supremely satisfying.”  This goes hand in hand with not seeking things of the world for personal pleasure, but instead to seek MY treasure in Him so He can be pleased and get ALL the GLORY and ALL the PRAISE!! Besides that’s why we were created, that’s what it’s all about.

Using the right Weapons

I’ve decided that I will NO longer walk without the full armor of God, because I want to be prepared to take a stand against the devil’s schemes (Ephesians 6:10-11).

I will put on my belt of truth so I will not be deceived. I will place the breastplate of righteousness on my chest so I can protect my heart… because let’s face it, if the devil gets a hold of that, we’re in trouble. I will prepare my feet with the gospel of peace so that I can endure spiritual conflict as I walk into dark places on my campus and in my life. I will grab my shield of faith to protect myself from being distracted and discouraged by Satan. I will take the helmet of salvation to protect my mind so I will not be spiritually deceived. I will grab the sword of the spirit (the word of The Lord) not for defensive purposes but for offensive purposes. And I will Pray. Not heartless meaningless prayers, but fervent and prioritized prayers.

I am done fighting with the wrong weapons and I want to start using the weapons that actually have power. (Priscilla Shirer- thanks for preaching on this at Passion 2018!!!) There is an enemy out there who is seeking us out, scheming and plotting against us, trying to do everything in his power to deceive us. However, I will say, I find confidence knowing that the devil is aware of who we are in Christ. He is fully aware of our capabilities and this is why he works so hard to divert us and draw us away from who Christ has called us to be.  Perhaps he sees more of our potential then we do. I refuse to let him win.

P.S. I do have other resolutions… like cutting back on sweets (I said cut back, not give up! Ice cream is too tasty!!)

With Love,

Mica Walter

 

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Direct. Turn. Preserve.

Direct. Turn. Preserve. I came across these three words last week as I was reading in Psalms.

Psalms 119:35-37 says, “Direct me in the path of your commands, for there I find delight. Turn my heart towards your statutes and not towards selfish gain. Turn my eyes away from worthless things; preserve my life according to your word.”

I just love these words and I desire my life to look like these verses above.  “Direct my path, turn my heart, turn my eyes and preserve my life,” that’s been my prayer this past week.

“Direct me in the path of your commands, for there I find delight.”

I find myself all too often setting up my path, and my plan and my course of action.  Often times I do this, and It leads me somewhere I don’t need to be, causing sin to be more powerful and disobedience to be more prevalent.  However, when I follow in obedience to The Lord, I always find fullness of joy in His presence.  So Lord guide me according to your Will, because I know I am always satisfied in YOU.

“Turn my heart towards your statutes and not towards selfish gain.”              

Selfishness has seemed to be a common theme that the Lord has continued to reveal to me.  I guess it’s His way of telling me it’s still a problem.  (#guilty!!!) When I step back and look at my life, it’s CRAZY scary how much I do for myself.  Every decision I make, I usually ask myself, “How will this affect me?”  “What does this mean for me?” “What will this ask of me?”  This is NOT how Christ thought. It’s humbling to know that It’s not just me that seems to struggle with this. Paul encourages the church in Philippi to do NOTHING out of selfish ambition, but to put others before yourself and to have the same mindset as Christ Jesus.  Paul wouldn’t have mentioned this to his brothers and sisters if it wasn’t something they were struggling with. Lord take my heart and change it.  Help me to seek you and not seek things, people, relationships and circumstances for my benefit.

“Turn my eyes away from worthless things; preserve my life according to your word.”  

 This chunk of scripture led me to pose this question, “What all do I seek that essentially has no eternal meaning?”  As I answered this question I discovered that there are a few too many things on my list.  I think selfishness and seeking worthless things go hand in hand with one another.  When I am seeking Him, and serving others I’m not as focused on all these things that hold no value.

I absolutely love this last bit… “preserve my life according to your word.”  If I prayed this more often my life would probably look a lot different.  Lord take my life, sustain it, shape it, maintain it, protect it and uphold it, ALL according to YOUR Word.  WOW!!!!

This is all kind of a jumbled up mess, but I hope it in some way challenges and encourages you wherever you are in your journey.

With love,

Mica!

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This Road

This Road. Let me tell you… This road started out being a thorn in my side.  As I struggled keeping my eyes open on the way to my 8AM class 3 days a week, I would think to myself… “Why did I choose to go here?” (here being UACCM) This road started out being of what I thought was a waste of 45 minuets of my life 5 days a week. This road was the 20 minute drive that made my school day that much longer.

However, I will miss this road. This road has been one of the biggest blessings.  This road has helped me to grow, this road has helped me to be still, and this road has forced me to pray, even when it has been hard. Because lets be honest, sometimes it is. It has helped me to take a step back and to look at my life, my actions, my motives, my heart. I have been humbled not by this road, but by my Savior.

I have learned a lot about myself through this drive. Lots of things that let’s just say are not the most enjoyable things to admit.  And while I could beat myself up at how much I fail to serve Christ fully, fail to pray without ceasing and succeed in being selfish, I don’t have to.  I have my Jesus who is beyond capable to forgive. All I have to do is ask and repent. I am so thankful for that. This road has reminded me that different season’s of our lives require different things out of us. I’m also reminded of The Lord’s faithfulness, and how he NEVER fails to provide exactly what we need right when we need it!!  And I am thankful for this road.

After Christmas, I will no longer be driving on Highway 64 every day. I will be attending UCA and my new road will be College avenue. While I am sad to be leaving my UACCM family and friends, I look forward to joining my Bear family at UCA.  I’m ready for new opportunities, new classes, new friendship and new ways to serve. Bring on 2018!!!

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Equipped

I simply do not even know where to begin in writing this post.  I just know I have to write something!! I have been completely and utterly overwhelmed with my God A LOT lately.  I’ve experienced His power, His love, His persistence, and His light.  His light that not only hopefully shines through me, but also those around me. His light that is literally pulling people out of the very darkest of places, darkest of circumstances and darkest of lives.  I was talking with a nonbeliever the other day, and I asked her, “how would you describe what is happening in your life right now?” and she answered with, “I just feel as if this light is pulling me out of the darkness.”  When she responded with this, chills ran up arms and legs and I then responded with, “JESUS!! That’s who He is, that’s what He does.”

I see God at work all around me.  I see Him working in the people of my church.  I see Him working in the people of my campus ministry.  I see Him working in the hearts of my classmates, and I see Him revealing Himself to lost souls that need to be rescued from the dark places they find themselves in day after day.

I see Him working in my life.  I see him providing opportunities for me to encourage others, pray for people and witness to those around me.  And I can’t get over the fact that He is choosing me (us) to accomplish these things.  I’m honored that He would have me to be the one to do it.  He WANTS to use us PEOPLE, so lets let Him!! He is also teaching me that every time I hear a word from him (whether that’s reading my Bible, listening to a podcast, turning on my worship songs, or simply listening to a sermon) it’s something I NEED to hear.  It ALWAYS applies.  For example, lets say you go to church Sunday and as you head out the door after the service, you think, “that message doesn’t really apply to me.”  WRONG. And I’m not going to lie, I’ve thought that thought one too many times.  But saying that couldn’t be more incorrect.  God is consistently equipping us.  He may use what we heard in a sermon to be preparing us to talk to a friend that is going to need us to relay to them what we just heard.  Or maybe he is preparing us for a trial that is going to happen 5 months down the road.  God is ALWAYS teaching us, preparing us, and equipping us.  We must be attentive to listen when he speaks.

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Be Still

If you are a college student, then you know school is really picking up to full speed right about now.  I’m not sure if any of you have felt as I, but this feeling of struggling to keep my head above water has been draining me.  It seems as though I have been living from one test to the next for the past two weeks.  The best word to describe it is… exhausting. But this week God has been revealing some good stuff.

Stuff #1- I have to allow enough time each and every day to BE STILL before my King.  I can’t merely do my quiet time for 10 minutes, rushing through my study, and pray an empty prayer because I’m distracted that I’m about to be late for class.  Trust me, I know, life is busy, school is crazy and our social lives can consume us.  But we must allow time to be still before Christ himself.  I realized that this has been the main source of my problems for the past few weeks.  I’ve been going, going and going nonstop. The time I was leaving for God consisted of rushed quiet times and me doing lots of the talking and not much listening.  This time certainly was not consisting of the worship my Savior deserves. Guys… If we can get this right, everything else will fall into place. All of a sudden we won’t be carrying burdens we weren’t meant to be carrying.  We won’t be anxious about things we are not in control of, and we won’t be struggling to stay above the waves we aren’t even supposed to be swimming in.  (P.s. you are NOT alone in this, we ALL find ourselves in these situations.  I actually struggle with this each and every day. I have to remind myself every morning of God’s promises and who he says he is.  This helps me remember he is incomprehensibly capable of taking care of things!!)

Long side note: I was in my car this week and God sent a reminder to me through song. (I absolutely LOVE it when he chooses this method to speak to me!!!) I don’t usually listen to the radio anymore; I typically use my Spotify. But, for some reason this morning I did, and my XM station, “The Message” was playing the song “Still” by Hillary Scott.  I knew the song so it wasn’t unfamiliar to me, but it was as though I was hearing it for the first time. And let me tell y’all…  This wasn’t just a, “Oh yeah, thanks God that was good.  I really needed to hear that” kind of moment.  This song became my prayer that morning.  I felt like it was just me and God in my car and that I was giving him control. Even just praying those words in the song, there was a burden that was lifted off of my shoulders. I was choosing to let go and choosing to not only believe that he’s got it, but really fully trusting that. Here are some of the lyrics…

“I believe that you are God alone, but sometimes I still try to take control. Cause I get scared when I can’t see the end, and all you want from me is to let go.

You’re parting waters, making a way for me, you’re moving mountains that I don’t even see. You’ve answered my prayer, before I even speak. All you need for me to be is STILL.

I Bring my praise before I bring my need.  Cause there’s no fear you’ve not already seen.  I rest my heart on all your promises. Cause I have seen and know your faithfulness.

You’re parting waters, making a way for me, you’re moving mountains that I don’t even see. You’ve answered my prayer, before I even speak. All you need for me to be is STILL.”

“STILL” seems easy, right?  I can’t say that that particular action comes naturally for me. But I know God calls us in Psalm 46:10 to, “be still and know that I AM God.”  Will you be still?

Stuff #2: Why do I do what I do?  Why do I work hard?  Why do I strive to make good grades? Why do I go to church? These are some questions I have been asking myself.  And If I am being completely honest, some of my answers probably aren’t what they should be.  But God has really been showing me, EVERYTHING is for HIM.  Everything I do, everything I say and everything I think, should be giving HIM GLORY.  He’s worthy of every single bit of it!!! 1 Corinthians 10:31 says “So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God.”

With love,

Mica!

 

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I am Ready!

Before you spend the next 5 minutes reading these words I have typed out on this screen, it’s probably best that I warn you, this post is just me expressing my excitement.  Some of you may find it silly that I even bothered to write all of this down, but I just couldn’t contain myself.  So with that being said, I hope you continue to read and find some sort of joy from reading this post. Wether that’s through being able to relate on some level or even if my words give you a little chuckle!:)

With summer coming to a close and with school just right around the corner, many emotions arise to my surface.  Summer was so so sweet!  It was full of some relaxation, new adventures, and many firsts.  This summer consisted of babysitting, painting, swimming, reading, cooking, camping, lake days, mission trips, camp counseling, Bible studies, movie nights, game nights, sand volleyball, fishball and list could go on and on.  And while all these things are AMAZING and summer is AWESOME, I am SO ready to start this new semester.

I wouldn’t necessarily say I am ready for homework and studying for tests, (who likes that anyway) but I am ready to reunite friendships while also creating new ones.  I am ready for a routine.  I am ready to continue to see God move in my church, on my campus, and in my community this semester.  I am ready for new responsibilities.  I am ready for new classes and new experiences with new opportunities.  Long story short, I AM READY!!  There is excitement in my blood even now as I type these words.  God is going to do BIG things this semester, the question is, are we willing to be apart of it?  I don’t know where some of you are standing right now, in your life, in your relationship with Christ, but I do know he wants to use you.  Something I heard from a sermon a few years back was, “to remain faithful where God has placed you.”  I’ve kind of made that my life moto.  This is not an easy thing to do, but if we allow ourselves to be available to be used by God, we are more likely to be obedient to his calling.  I don’t know about you, but I don’t want to miss out on his blessings this semester.  I want to experience him in the fullest.

So hey, I am going to end on a “real” note (if you know what I mean) I don’t just write these words to remind you guys, but also to remind myself of these things.  Let me be honest, while yes there is SO much excitement inside me, there is also SO much fear.  The school year makes me anxious and my trust in the Lord seems harder to find.  But then I am reminded of his faithfulness and who he is.  I am reminded that he is the everlasting God, the creator of the ends of the earth.  I am reminded that he never grows tired or weary and his understanding no one can fathom. (Isaiah 40:28)  And when I remind myself of that, everything is put back into perspective.

Wishing everyone a fantasitc semester!

With Love,

Mica!